Oh god it's happening again and what is making it worse it's happening to me dammit.why???? this is what i am asking myself over and over again but no answer that i can think off.
She says things and much more ,I wish i have a lie detector or an angel to help me so i won't be fooled again and then again ,hmm It's like I not really learn my lessons and that I not see it coming in my face ever.
Defending myself I would say one word it is love and I think this should be enough ,love makes us crazy ,love makes us unreasonable ,love makes us happy and love makes us blind.
She says she loves me but then she do the opposite thing exactly and then she says it is not her it is someone else ,huh honestly I don't know ,I really don't know .I wish for once i can see through her and know what is she thinking ,what is she doing and most important what she wants, just once and for all.
I think too much and I act a little ,this why I have my headache now and this why i will not take an aspirin ,I won't deny my pain and I won't regret anything ,I knew the risks and i walked for the prize .I don't think i will reach the end and achieve my goal ,but wish i did.
I am preparing myself for everything now ,I am packing my feelings into my heart and soon I will close it and close it forever .
I will lock my heart down with a big lock and i will put a spell on that lock ,no one will ever find the key for that lock ,I will hide it far far away so that I be sure I am not hurt again.
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